Im really not in a great state of mind at the moment. This morning Kevin had a nasty fall and has smashed his hip bone. its pretty bad. means he won't be able to work for about 3 months. He fell wile at wok, thought he had twisted his ankle and was in a hole lot of pain with it. I had to run and get first aider Tommy, to help him. he was crying out in pain holding his leg. he could't get up not for nothing. thinking he had only a twisted ankle 2 of the men lifted him up into their arms and took him to the exit. he was in sooooo much pain. shaking and so upset. I trying to comfert him as much as possible. Mark and Tom took him to the hospital, where they later found out his hip is broken. The doctors say he is very unlucky to have broken his hip at his age. and could'nt quite belive it. I just - well im falling apart.
He had to have morphin and stuff, he is in theater now. having the op. will be in hospital for the next 5 days or so. deverstated.
So yesturday we went to see Ronan Live at the bbc! he is soooo lovely *sigh* I sat the closest to him ever - right at his feet. (in more than one scence of the word) I thought I was gonna be sick! He sang when u say nothing at all. sadly once cos he did it sopt on (such a pro) every other artist did it twice cos they are'nt as good as Ronan :P we also saw Girls aloud & lulu We had to stand out side waiting to go in for hours but it was well worth bearing the cold for. It was also the first time I met my Ronan fairy in person yesturday. as seen with me above. she is lovely! Sadly couldn't take pics inside, so will just have to wait till the show is aired on 25th march 2006 :D so cant wait! bring on tour 2006 already. I have 3 dates (gigs) with Corinne in the summer so far and newmarket with kev. aint enough though. I like promotion. tv - free, free good! hopefully please god on the 25th I will have stills of the show to add up to piggypage too. I recon we will be on tv as me and corinne was right at the front of Ro! - he waved at us when he came out - soooo cool! and he looked pleased we was there. which was really nice. he also looked straight at me too for a wile, I was nearly sick. no one turned up for the other artists! I thought was pretty sad. nah well they cant all be ronan :D
So things are not much better in most aspects of my life at the moment. things are still like world war 45 with the family. I still havent found a job, and just the thought of it make me want to be sick. I have spent most of a week after finding out I had lost my job very sick. I have been very depressed. lol at least I lost weight ;)
Then I met Corinne - she is my Ronan fairy. I mensioned her before I am sure, well we are getting on very well. and have made lots of ronan'y plans together. It really has been a break in the clouds for me. Things have been working out for us really well at the moment. we have 3 concerts lined up to go to together in the summer. I also have a 4th one which I am going to attend with kevin in july.
we are going to Bristol in june & still trying for hamton also - june (bristol standing in front area) liverpool & newmarket racecourse in july - liverpool second Row! (newmarket standing) & kenwood house in august - that one we have Front row tickets for! should be brillant!!!
We (kev & I) had to change our holiday 2 days forward so I could make the liverpool one :P we wasnt going to be back in time.
We ave Ronan'y plans for this tuesday also, but I cant say what till wednesday as its a secret :D then I will brag (please god) a hole lot :D
Tuesday Today was the op of yesterday, started good ended up bad, real bad I have about taken all I can! So work was just about stomachable. Finished at an ok time, came home to get ready - had arrangements to go out with Mum and her Bf to get Flowers for their wedding, to make their displays. took time out from my cleaning job.
They came early - like I asked them not too, I was ok about it but Roy is so rude and was complaining about me not being ready - Hello early!!! Went with them weather terrible, cold very wet coming down hard. Had only my mobile phone with me. Got dragged all over Melton looking for flowers that wasn't there. Very cold - Roy was kicking off all the way around. I just keeped away from him as much as poss.
Come to going home time, walking back to the car... We was stood waiting at the crossing. Roy walks Straight out in front of a speeding car! Mum grabbed his back and screamed No! He turned around Finger pointed in her face, Teeth bared shouted "F**k *ff" at her, then the lights changed to green and crossed.
I Looked at mum and she was very up set, I was very angry! She knew this and said leave it. I told her she should not let him talk to her in that way! And she deserved an apology. I said Nothing but really wanted too. we crossed over again - people everywhere. Got to the other side of the road... Roy turned to me and said "I could of made it if It hadn't been for you!" I looked him in the eye and said this "Why exactly did you want to be on the other side of the road from me and mum anyway?"
Because the Car was going so fast and so close there was NO WAY he could of made it across that road - noway. He is a big fat old man with bad legs and a heart problem. not even someone who was super fit could of done it.
He turned to me in the street screaming at the top of his very loud voice "F**k *ff , B*ll***s You can't speak to me like that, F**k *ff." Then ran up the hill away. Leaving mum stood there with me. She said she was sorry, I told her it was Him that needed to be sorry I explained things to her. He had long gone out of sight now. She has bad nerves and said she had to go so she didn't lose him - as in she has a acrophobia
Saturday I was so mad at the time of writing the above I had to leave it at that. It was upsetting me too much to go further into it. anyways cut a huge story short I had to walk nearly 3 miles in very impractical shoes, soaked to the bone. Kevin had to leave work and fetch me. My feet are still damaged. I have a huge bloodblister under my toenail, and my toes were black for over a day and a half. I haven't heard any thing at all from Roy. He has made NO attemt to make anykind of an - forget it, I just havent got the strenth right now. its just too much going on in my head right now. Mum I.m me, she is still very upset with Roy, but on a hole nowhere like as much as she should be I feel. she hasnt said or done anything at all about it. she wanted to know if I was upset with her. I told her not with you, but allthough I didnt say it I feel very let down by her. I understand why she keeps quite but it does not make it right. she also asked me other questions along with am I coming to the wedding. I told her I will always be there for you, So yes. but I also said u should be seriously thinking should u be marrying him. I told her its your choice. its your life. But what hurts the most with all the questions she asked not one of them was are you ok?
Today Started off real bad, sucked to the floor. I have been told a long with my work mates that we have no more work as of the end of the month. most of us if not all of us are gutted. I have as of yet got nothing else to go to. I have got a possiblity in the pipe line. all I can do is hope. It will mean less money or twice as many hours for the same or still less, But what can I do my job is as good as over. My supervisor she hates me, with a passion. had it out for me since day one, she is trying to twist the knife on me as much as possible. she is so crule and one of the most horrible people I have ever knowen. If you met her you'd probley wonder what I was on about but she is poison. I know she will make the next month as hard as possible. So I am desbrate for it to be over now after today.
But then the day turned around, I met this lady called Corinne she is my Ronan Fairy ;) now I have some good things to believe in! she is going to help me meet my Idol :) smiles all round! Tomorrow I PREY will be a better day at work! also trying to get tickets for a gig with Ronan in August ;)
I have had the news everyone dreads. I have lost my Job, my main source of money is almost gone. they told us today. they wanted us to go today but thankfully one of the boss's bob has got us a month more. then no job. they said it is for sure.. and forever. I am very down at the moment over it so I won't say much more. just feel so sick and scared right now.
Yay I actually kicked my self up the arse I made my self give the old blog a new look. ha ha I guess it would be pointless to say The theme is My Idol Ronan Keating :D I have moved most of the fanlistings to there own piggypage page and can also be viewed at the moment on the page below :P There is a perment link to them in the right side bar.
Tomorrow Is my Idols Birthday too so Happy Birthday Ronan!
I have ordered tickets to the newmarket gig, and I am going to order tickets to the kenwood house gig in london on saturday (when they are released for sale) There is a 3rd date out another london gig earlyer in june also but its on a tuesday and it would not be possible to get there. blah would be ok if I didnt live over 100 miles away and could drive. and I kinda already had to beg a lot to the other two gigs to go, so I would get a huge No this time :?
